Sunday, December 6, 2009

Still Poor


Jeff has opened this collection of his poetry with this:

"This begins a new volume of poetry
as yet unnamed and obviously incomplete,
poems being added as they are finished,
with no thought yet as to arrangement.
However, as will be noted, most are:"


The first section consists of poems written between February 1966 and December 1969. He sub titles this section as "Still Poor". Perhaps that was a comment on his bank account rather than his life. I know Jeff was married in 1966, you can see the photo at the head of this post. The poems he wrote between 1966 and 1969 that are in the section "Still Poor" are posted here, so scroll down and read them. Due to the vagaries of the blog software the last written appears first. You can scroll right down and read the first ones written in chronological order by reading down, then scrolling back up to the next post. Annoying, I know.

Otherwise just read them as they run and remember the poet was getting younger as you read! Maybe deconstructing the work that way might lend new insight? There is one poem not included with the rest below which I have included here. I posted this on the main Jeff Lassen page, it is my favourite of all the poems written that I have read, so far. There is still an enormous amount of work for me to trawl through and organize so I might end up with several favourites before I'm through!


HE, SHE, IT and THEY


HE loved SHE, SHE loved HE;
Both were happy as can be.
IT was a love so very grand;
HE offered SHE a wedding band.

Then THEY began to speak -
IT was over in a week.

HE and SHE are now apart,
Each one guarding an injured heart.
THEY, it seems, are satisfied:
THEY succeeded at what THEY tried.

Jul 1969


I would hazard a guess that the marriage of 1966 came to something of an end in mid 1969, wouldn't you agree? Enjoy 'Still Poor'.

A Grace Before The Christmas Meal

Bless, Oh Lord, this food -

The feast is ready:
All manner of food is prepared
To tempt the eye
And please the senses -
A steaming roast turkey;
Variety of vegetables;
Diverse pies, cookies, candies,
Nuts, and jellies.
(Or other foods,
Each according to his family custom.)

And atmosphere:
Full of merriment,
Gay,
Friendly;
A fitting scene for a great feast.

A feast:
A commemoration
(So Webster says)
Of some event or person
Of some significance.

And this feast is
A commemoration of -
A thanksgiving for -
The birth -
Whose birth
That after near two thousand years
We still commemorate,
Celebrate,
Give thanks for -
Of Jesus,
Child of simple parents,
Poor,
Of no import,
And yet -
The gift
Of God Almighty:
Promised a-long
For the world's salvation.
Of this import -
This the event
To commemorate -
For this the feast.



Otherwise we mark the day:
By gifts
To fill the needs
(As He fills ours)
And please the desires of
The recipient.
We dress and light a tree
To glitter and shine
As the stars of heaven:
A new light -
As different from the rest;
As to this day apart.
We send our greeting,
And welcome to our house
Such as will come;
Forget our isolation
And commune,
Rejoice,
With all mankind.

For Christ is born:
The gift of God
To all mankind -
The greatest gift
Ever.

If our feast,
The food before us,
Is to feed the body
As His gift
Feeds our souls;

If our merriment and joy
Is token
Of His reception in our hearts;

If our gifts
Are only to reflect
His gift to us;

If our tree
With lights and glitter
Is just to show
The symbol of
The Light
Come into the world;

If our greeting
And friendliness
Is but to show
His coming
For all mankind;

If all these things
Are the reason,
The cause for our celebration,
Then we are ready
To eat the feast
To his eternal honor and glory;

Then bless, Oh lord, this food.

Amen.

Dec 1969

Lines To A Nymphet

Lines to a Nymphet

A Poet's Dilemma


What can I say,
Without being ridiculous;
What!
That you will believe
And understand?

I know what I can't say -
And why!

I can't say I love you:
You'd never believe,
That knowing you a little,
I could feel so much.

I can't say I want you:
You'd misunderstand
My motives
And be afraid.

I can't ask you to
Be mine alone:
It wouldn't be fair
To tie you down.
You'd say no,
And maybe
Never see me again.

I can't describe
In poetry,
Of lesser beauty than yourself,
Your attributes,
Your youthful charms,
Or you would call me
Lecher!

But
What can I say,
At which one
So young
Will not take
Offense.

Perhaps
I'll get by with this:

Moments spent with you
Are little bits
Of Heaven;
Pure,
Sweet,
Joyous
Times.

It doesn't matter
What
or
Where:
only
Who -
That's you!

If mere moments are so heavenly,
Think what days, weeks, years might be.

Dec 1969


Editor's Note: I love that last stanza, "If mere moments are so heavenly,
Think what days, weeks, years might be." That, people, is romance! That's what poetry and poetic composition is all about, surely? To say so much, so eloquently and yet also so enjoyable to read (out loud of course).

Why?

Why?
Why do I fight within myself
Trying to reconcile
My love for her
With her independence?

Torture -
Sheer, painful torture:
Loving her completely,
To the exclusion of all others -
Without thought for other girls,
Or thought of my needs -
For so long now unfulfilled -
Or any selfishness
Which in my feeble power
I am able to subdue.

I would not force her:
I would not pressure her...

Yet what am I -
Stone?

I love!
And yet I am not loved!

Her fancies range,
And others merit
Attention more than me.

Am I to idly sit
And wait forever,
Hoping that she will finally
Accept,
Believe my love for her?

No!
I cannot bear the pain.

Aug 1969

Poor Miserable Wretch!

Poor miserable wretch!
Hateful loathsome creature:
Selfishness clothed in Love -
Penultimate Sin -
Desiring that which cannot yet desire,
And will not be desired.

It is that I do not love,
Or that I love too much -
Granting freedom to one not ready
To freely wield the choice
Of love?

Do I -
Meekly, patiently - honestly -
Asking her to freely choose -
Bind her
To a choice not hers -
Not yet?

Poor miserable wretch!
Hateful loathsome creature:
Are you selfish -
Even if unwittingly,
Contrary to design -
Because she believes so?
The wrong is just as grave!

Aug 1969


Aiden

My little friend!

Why are you gone so soon?

What was your purpose

In your brief life?

Of course

It wasn’t your purpose.

It was God’s!

And I can’t know

What that was.

I get no answer

To my question

“Why?”

I’m confused!

It is difficult

To accept

And to have faith

That some good end

Was served.

But it was!

For your brief time

You brought something

To many.

You had friends -

Friends you never met -

Who cared for you

And felt for you

And prayed for you!

There formed

A great network

Of people reaching out

With common cause

To you

To your parents

To God

Which would not have been

Except for you.

And some of us

Learned something more

About prayer

For God’s will

And acceptance

Of the goodness

Of His plan

Whether seen or not.

I learned of courage

And strength

As your little body

Fought to live.

I learned more

of unselfish love

As I watched

Your father

Keep his watch.

And I learned more

Of my own strengths

As I tried to give

And of my weakness

As I doubted.

Thank you Aiden

For the chance

To know you

A little while

And be better for it!

You can rest now

Little one!

Christmas Gift - 1968

Why a poem as a Christmas gift:
Only because of poverty:
Or is there further reason,
Positive value to commend
The writing of a verse at Christmastide:

I think there is!

First off, a poem cannot be bought.
As such no value can,
In monetary terms,
Be to poetry applied -
And therefore no discussion
Of who spent more or less.

Second,
And I'm sure the much more weighty case
For a poetic gift,
Is that a poem cannot
An empty present be.

The thought behind the gift...
They say this is the thing.

And yet, how many folds begrudge
The few coins for a gift?
How many settle
For what they only hope
The recipient will like?

At best, these gifts are only poor
Tokens of feelings
Which may or not exist.

But no one writes a poem
Unless he feels,
And loves.

The thought behind the gift is in it;
The thought is the gift - is the poem.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Solstice

A Birthday Poem
For a Girl who was 17 -
June 21, 1960


I love you!
And with equal depth of feeling
I hate!
The circumstance.

I would be with you -
I'm sure we could
Be happier than most -
But that can't be -
At least not now.

If we could alter circumstance...

But we know!
We can't!

You'll have a happy birthday
A year from now,
(This year you'll live somehow)
For Spring will ripen into Summer.

And then?

Perhaps we'll meet again!

Acrostic

Illogical answers to sensible questions;

Laughing at serious moments
Over nothing;
Various expressions
Either facial or spoken;

Youth,
Openness,
Unembittered trusting heart;

Wit, charm, grace;
Electric kisses -
Nibbles, pecks,
Deep, passionate,
Yet tender; peaceful embraces;

Stuttering; pouting;
Modesty;
Intellect; caution; feminine guile;
These are some of the reasons why -
Here read the first letter in each line.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Hard Work

About Searsport, ME, unloading tapioca flour, about 1968.


If there are curses left unuttered
At least I know I've tried;
And when the curses didn't help
I prayed until I cried.

Oh stalwart men were working
In that ship's darkened hold
Loading cargo ton by ton
And shrugging off the cold.

But I was cold and tired
A stripling lad, no more,
My will had flagged, I wanted
But to rest, to go ashore.

I couldn't lift another bag
I swore I wouldn't try
I prayed for strength to go ahead
Even if I'd die.

The others worked without a wince
As if it all was fun;
And I worked on, but suffering,
Until the job was done.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

The Wedding Gift

I tried to write;
I can't!
I really wanted to
Give you something
New,
Bright,
Fresh,
For a wedding present -
Our wedding.

What?
Something of myself.
My mind,
My creation,
My feeling
For you,
Expressed in glowing terms,
Would make a fitting gift.

A poem?
Of course!
What more fitting gift is there?
A poem
Straight from the heart.

My mind's too full:
Full of thoughts of later,
When I must undergo
The rite,
Ceremony,
Full

Oh Hell!

But will you take,
Accept,
This gift -
My love;
My life
With you;
My vow -
Only you,
Forever;
The best,
Whatever I can give
(Though that's not much) -
Instead?

I pray you will,
For this is all I have.
It's true though -
I do love you
And always will.

But I can't write
A poem.
I can't!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

The Meeting

Across a crowded room I see
(As vividly as I did then -
Though now it's just a memory -
One of many I will pen)

A pair of shining eyes on me
Fixed strong enough to hold me still
And make mine open up to see
And, having seen, to drink their fill.

Beyond those brilliant orbs I glanced
And found a frame of ebon hair
Which, though by eyes I was entranced,
Of my attention begged a share.

The lustre, radiance of that crown
(As brightest light, though deepest black)
Shown round the haunting eyes of brown
Which at my own were staring back.

Within that frame of beauteous hair,
Which hung below the shoulder line,
And which, I know, by nightly care
Was kept to looking just that fine,

There was a face which I bethought
Was fit to house those eyes sublime
And held the things which men have sought
As beauty from the start of time:

A soft, round face with glowing cheek,
A nose just broad enough to please,
The mouth not even slightly weak
With two full lips (Which seemed to tease

My own with thoughts of kisses sweet,
And so made me return the smile
Which made that picture so complete -
The one enthralling me the while.)

The skin, a creamy cocoa colour,
Which never had a blemish known,
And textured soft and smooth as velour,
Shone with a radiance all its own.

Held by those eves enraptured still
I stood and could not look away,
Nor did I wish to, for my will
Was that I ever thus would stay:

On beauty gazing constantly,
Daring not to blink for fear
That, eyes reopened instantly,
This vision would not reappear.

The crowd between us grew until
My vision soon was lost to view
Behind a mass of lace and frill.
The part now was past the few

Who had been there when first I saw
Those eyes which seemed to dance and play.
A friend of mine began to draw
Me toward a group and so away.

And though I meant to go and find
A passage to the other wall,
I soon decided that my mind
Had played a trick and that was all.

And soon my thoughts were turned to drink
And appetizers here and there
Around the room. And did I think
The party fun? And would I care

To come again another time?
Oh Mr. Lassen. And you're whose guest?
And would I like my drink with lime?
To all these questions I addressed

Myself in the post proper way,
Until they thought I did belong.
I really did not want to stay;
I'd been uneasy all along.

United Nations parties are,
In my opinion, quite a bore
For all the people there are far
Above my station on the floor

Of this great world society.
For duty to a friend I went
And so endure the misery -
In all, an evening badly spent.

From one of many groups I turned
Expecting one more just the same;
But two dark eyes into mine burned,
And then at once I felt the shame


Of failing earlier to read
The message there - I'm lonely here.
Won=t you please come and talk - the need
Which now had brought that vision near.

It was no vision but instead
Beneath the eyes and face and hair -
That beauteous sight on which I'd fed -
There was a body beyond compare.

Smooth curves correctly placed,
Her bosom owned more than its share
Of youthful firmness; she was graced
With legs (the most beautiful pair

That ever I had seen before)
So smooth, and shaped so perfectly -
That I could not but help adore.
And looking was such ecstasy.

Erect and straight she stood with pride
(And that she had good cause to do)
While in her lonely gnawing vied
With all the etiquette she knew.

I could not speak, for fear that she,
A goddess, or a princess sure
Of some far-distant land, might be
Offended by my overture.

But still her burning eyes held mine
And sensed perhaps my growing dread
Of losing here, a sight so fine.
The soft and calm - Hello - she said.

My heart, which jumped a thousand feel,
Was slowly floating back to me.
I found the courage to repeat -
Hello - and waited breathlessly.

She spoke again, and soon at ease
(No goddess or a princess, she
Wished only one to talk with. Please
Would I but keep her company?)

I too began to voice my thought
And, in my proper manner still,
Gave thanks to what ever Fate had brought
Us here, each other's need to fill.

So thus it was the evening passed
But all too soon it had to end;
It could not be that this could last,
That I had found a friend.

Then most tactful and polite
Asked if I might, with pleasure great,
Call her upon the morrow night
And then perhaps arrange a date.

I dared not hope that she'd consent
To such a plan, and was about
To say I hadn't really meant
Offense, and then go out

For it was time for me to leave,
When she said that she'd love to hear
From me. I could not quite believe
I'd had a chance with one so dear.

I kissed her gently on the hand
And held it long within my own,
Then said good-bye, it had been grand
And promised that I soon would phone.

But she would not my hand release
And I could hardly bear to leave;
I kissed her brow, again made peace,
But still her hand to mine did cleave.

I could not bear to thus depart
While feeling there was more than this;
I knew she'd given me her heart
So on her lips I placed a kiss.

Ten thousand times ten thousand feet
My heart flew up as I walked away.
I'd never had a kiss as sweet,
Nor have I to this day.

Feb 1966